U say u love me? PROVE IT!

"If you love me, prove it. If you actually care, prove it. I will push you away just so you come back.. That's when i'll let my gaurd down; not when you sweet talk me, or tell me lies, no. I will show you my true self when I know you're being real with me. Don't think i don't care, because I do. I just don't want to get screwed over like i have each and everytime i let my gaurd down. I guess i just don't know what the difference is between 'sweet talk' and the real thing. Lying to me seems easy nowadays, doesn't it? Breaking my heart seems easy these days too huh? Or how about getting my hopes up saying that you'll change and that you won't leave anymore? Well you know what? Next time you leave, just don't come back. Please; It's alot easier saying goodbye just once than having to say it a million times and then say 'hello' a short while after, ending with a 'goodbye' as soon as that wine glass comes to the table. I'm beginning to think I'm not strong enough to care anymore, you just repeat the same process; Lying, cheating, drinking, leaving, then coming back and the whole cycle restarts. You think you got it rough? You don't even know the half of it, let alone the whole thing, so do me a favor - Next time you decide to screw up remember who you've changed because of what you've done, including me, and i hope you know that what goes around comes around, and I'm not going to be around when it does. With all that said, keep on 'living it up and drinking it down' if that's what makes you happy. But there's no way in hell you'll be happy in the longrun when everyone leaves you... Oh wait, they already have. You still just don't care. Atleast you've shown me exactly what NOT to do in life and that's all i get in return.... Pathetic."